You are NOT alone. Come to the "well" of Life. There are all sorts of people struggling like you are. We all have our various affections, weaknesses, and pernicious sins to deal with, but to conquer them, we have to "face the truth!" The Lord is ever ready to help you, as are your loved ones, and friends, but one must be humble of heart, docile to the Holy Spirit, and desire to change, for the "proud, the insolent" will not be heard by God...not because the Lord doesn't love, but because He DOES! He has to be true to Himself. So do we. As St Alphonsus says, "We must do violence to ourselves!" To be victorious over our sins, we cannot "wink" at them, "wish them to leave" and then put ourselves into near occasions where we will be tempted and not prepared to fight with diligence. "Kill the Lion when he is small." With the Lord's assistance, and that of our Blessed Mother, we WILL be able to ward off the 'temptations' and tricks and snares of the "Evil One" who's always waiting to snatch a soul from grace. Call on the Lord while He is near. He is always near those who cry to Him. Our Blessed Mother, Mary's name, is also a very POWERFUL name to utter in time of temptation. The Enemy of your soul and mine cannot stand to hear Her Name spoken. Please visit Sober Catholic for words of encouragment, and "tough love."
And pray to Ven. Matt Talbot, patron Saint of alcoholics (and other addictions) since so many others are usually intertwined with alcohol addiction.