3 years ago
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
BLOGfast...please don't forget me...okay?
Well, it's done and time to call it a day here at RECONnecting to the Truth. I've pondered this off and on for a while and it seems that it's time to stop blogging. Not sure how long the interim will last. It's up to God. BUT folks, if I were to spend 1/10 the time in front of the Blessed Sacrament at our lovely Adoration chapel that's there for us 24/7 as I do in front of this computer, I might have a glowing face of a saint by now. Not that the "glowing face" is my aim, but you know what I mean.
I've not made a solid commitment to ever give Jesus a Holy Hour during the week, but I've been tapping at this machine constantly at all hours and sometimes it seems frivolous. I've only gone to Adore my Lord when "it fits my schedule" which ends up being "not very often" if at all. It's time for me to 'leave what I love" for something and SOMEONE more demanding of my love. He's calling me to come away with Him. My Heavenly Husband is calling me, and I must go to Him. I'm going to find this so dang hard, extremely hard, but I've got to offer up the pain for the poor souls and the souls of our holy priests. If I don't get back to blogging, it was a fun ride. If I do...see ya later.
Please don't give up on me. Email me, okay TJ? I'll be e-mailing as usual, but this blogging stuff has got to cease. It's only because it's ONE THING I can suffer and offer to God that is really going to hurt. I don't watch t.v. I don't dance, I don't bar hop, I don't putter in the yard, nothing like that. But I DO NEED to read more. I just can't blog and read nearly as much as I long to, and the Saints are waiting for me. A whole world beyond the veil of my beloved BIG bros and sisters is waiting for me. I need to learn from them. I need to read the present day anointed writers who can steer me in the best direction.
God bless all of you. Thanks to all of you for coming by and do keep me in prayer. I'll need it. This is going to be very hard. But it's something I MUST do for the LOVER of my soul. It's for the best for me and my soul. Believe me, it already hurts. I'm reading Story of a Soul right now, and I know St. Therese and I have so much to learn about each other. She has much to say to me, and I have much to learn from her. This is killing me. This has been the most amazing creative outlet for me, but if I can't give this up for Jesus, then I'm only kidding myself about giving up anything else for Him, I have to be brutally honest. It's almost become another thing to have 'angst' about and that's not a good thing.
Just last week, I never thought I'd be typing this but God has a way of shaking one loose from EVERYTHING, and it's called ABANDONMENT. Read Story of a Soul and you'll know what I mean. Who knows, maybe after a week I'll be given the leeway to come back, or maybe I won't but I have to be obedient to my Lord, not my 'wants' and my will. Maybe, God willing I can post something only once a week or every 2 weeks or once a month. I'll have to seek God about this. I can't quit forever, and I think He understands that plea from my heart, but this daily habit is one that has to go, straight to His feet and I need to rise up and go wherever else He wants me to go.
God be with all of you.