Thursday, August 24, 2006
A Bitter Pill . . .
It was about 5 weeks ago, a sweltering 98 degrees, on a July night at 8:00 p.m. It was so humid the moon looked like it could drip, when I was chilled to the bone by one young mom's words. I met Sally, (not her real name) a home Spa Party. Usually I avoid these home parties like the plague - I just don't like them. Sally was bemoaning the fact that she was once again pregnant. She said, " I'm the only woman I know of who's become pregnant twice while on the pill!" Then she said - "I'm cursed." That's when I felt cold. A few were laughing about her "plight" and told her to "try other ways" and she laughed, too, but it was ugly laughter, like the "snickering of demons." I'm not insinuating at all that these women there were evil, but some "uninvited guests" most certainly were. It was like Screwtape Letters, in real life. It was unnerving. The bounteous assorted hors dourves, which suddenly seemed more like "demonic delicacies," lost their appeal, so I left and went in the family room and silently prayed Hail Mary's for Sally and her friends. It was like doing battle. The flippant materialistic attitude was rampant during the evening.
Driving home that night I was thinking how potentially so much better our marriage would have been, had we been open to life from the start. I'd have been too busy to find time to chase after elusive happiness when we drifted so far apart in our 2nd decade of marriage. Maybe we wouldn't have drifted so far apart with more kids in tow(?) Once our kids were both in school all day, I allowed my ennui and dissatisfaction to get the best of me. Combine that with a friend (more like a "cohort in complaining") and it was disastrous. I understand now when Dr. Ray has told us his wife has said many times that she's a better mother of 10 kids than she would have been of 1, 2 or 3. I believe that would have been the same thing I'd be saying had we been open to life.
Learning what the pill really is and what it does, since returning to the Catholic Church, has been a "hard pill to swallow"- no pun intended. I know I've been forgiven for using it, but there's a hollow hurt in my heart that will never go away. It's part of my cross to embrace and carry now. The excuses for using birth control are based only in selfishness and fear. The emotional and spiritual bonding that should have grown from the start between us, as husband and wife, was destroyed by the pill. That's the brutal truth. We took vows at our wedding to accept children lovingly from God, yet within hours and for years, we selfishly said "no" to God and His gift of life.
Our gratitude is deep toward God, in that he graced us as we stayed together to work it all out, and we didn't shatter our family with a divorce. I offer up my grief and sadness for having contracepted, for the salvation of Sally's soul and others that are lost in this abhorrent, selfish trap of the enemy he's using for the destruction of souls and families. Pope Paul VI was right. Evil was loosed, like at no other time in history, with the creation and use of the pill. God forgive us. JMJ pray for us and save souls!
susie
Sunday, August 13, 2006
After reading the horrific news, I perused some websites and came across this picture of Blessed Mother Teresa. How completely polar opposite this saintly woman compared to me, and other women of the world who complain or have ever complained about our appearance as we age. Just in case the article link above disappears, you can maybe find it in the archives:
by Steven Ertelt
LifeNews.com Editor
August 8, 2006
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Mary and her fiat . . .
THE ALMIGHTY NEEDED MARY'S FIAT..HER YES..TO PROCEED WITH HIS PLAN OF THE MERCIFUL SALVATION OF MANKIND. IN HIS LOVE HE BECAME VUNERABLE BEFORE HIS PERFECT CREATION. ALL OF HEAVEN WAITED WITH HELD BREATH FOR HER ANSWER. EVEN SATAN AND HIS MINIONS. WHEN SHE EMBRACED HIS BELOVED TO HER WOMB UNDER HER HEART ALL OF HEAVEN REJOICED AND ALL OF THE HELLISH FALLEN ANGELS WERE FURIOUS!! THUS THE WAR AGAINST THE WOMAN..AND HER SEED..WHICH IS JESUS AND HIS BODY..US...THE HOLY ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH AND IT'S VISIBLE HEAD..THE POPE.
HER SEED...HER SEED..HER...SEED...HERS..IF IT IS STATED THAT HER SEED IS JESUS CHRIST AND ALL THAT ARE BAPTISED IN CHRIST ARE OF THE BODY OF CHRIST THEN THAT MEANS THAT WE ARE OF HER SEED TOO. AND IN THE WORDING FROM BELOW...THY SEED.. MUST MEAN THE PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT BAPTISED IN CHRIST. SO IN GENESIS WE ARE ALREADY SPOKEN OF AS THE CHILDREN OF THE MOTHER OF CHRIST. THE WOMAN..IF YOU NOTICE IN SCRIPTURE.. JESUS CALLS HER WOMAN MANY TIMES TO DEFINE HER AS THE WOMAN FROM GENESIS.
GOD SPEAKING TO THE SERPENT..
15 I will put enmities between thee and the woman, and thy seed and her seed: she shall crush thy head, and thou shalt lie in wait for her heel.
15 "She shall crush"... Ipsa, the woman; so divers of the fathers read this place, conformably to the Latin: others read it ipsum, viz., the seed. The sense is the same: for it is by her seed, Jesus Christ, that the woman crushes the serpent's head.
It just makes my heart squeeze with joy and holy awe before this Truth. We are spoken of in Genesis. You , me, everyone who is a part of the Body of Christ is from her seed...
and I add: thanks Kat, for these thoughts.
The Rosary, a powerful weapon against the devil
The first “Hail Mary” was brought from Heaven
by Gabriel the Archangel, the messenger of Holy Trinity
The following text of Father Gabriel Amorth, chief exorcist of the Vatican, is taken from the March-April, 2003 issue of “Echo of Mary, Queen of Peace”:
The recent Apostolic Letter of John Paul II, "Rosarium Virginis Mariae" (released last October 16) encourages all Christians to turn back to the prayer strongly recommended both by the latest Pontiffs and recent Marian apparitions. Paul VI called the Rosary a compendium of the Gospel. To make it more complete, John Paul II added the 'mysteries of light' to cover Jesus' public life. Padre Pio called the Rosary beads a weapon of extraordinary power against Satan.
One day a colleague of mine heard the devil say during an exorcism: "Every Hail Mary is like a blow on my head. If Christians knew how powerful the Rosary was, it would be my end." The secret that makes this prayer so effective is that the Rosary is both prayer and meditation. It is addressed to the Father, to the Blessed Virgin, and to the Holy Trinity, and is a meditation centred on Christ.
Today more than ever, the world is in need of prayer and meditation. It is in need of prayer because people have forgotten God, and without God the world has put itself on the edge of a precipice. This is why in Her messages, Our Lady insists so much on prayer. Without God's help, Satan wins. The world is also in need of meditation because if the great Christian truths are forgotten, souls become void. This void is grabbed up by the enemy, and he fills it with his lies. And today we see the results with widespread belief in superstition and occultism.